Learning to follow Christ is not a matter of making oneself obedient to a certain set of rules. One of the great earmarks of those following Christ is wonderment on their part as to their own motivations. They are being shaken free from a primitive, worldly, model of understanding. They are being shaken free from the world altogether.
This is another implication of the reality that faith is a response, not an attitude or decision. It’s a response of one’s being at a level deeper than thought or self-awareness. Everyone is a Christian long before he or she takes a vow or pledges an allegiance. Those activities are fruits and flowers; what they emerge from is faith.
That’s why we should never applaud ourselves for having ‘come to Christ.’ Jesus said, You didn’t choose me, I chose you.