YOU ARE NOT YOUR OWN

The concept of ‘legal ownership’ only has application within a structural reality that has several other elements: membership in a law-articulated society; the content of the laws of that society; adherence to those laws.  I legally own my house because I paid for it in a certain law-structured reality.  Outside of some such reality, the concept simply evaporates.  In a state of complete anarchy, I cannot meaningfully be said to own my house.

The structure of the society in which we find ourselves determines what we can own.  In the particular American society of which I am a part, I cannot own my children, or (thankfully) my neighbor, or the air I breathe.  American society simply provides no mechanism for establishing ownership of these things.

(The language game of which ‘my’ is a part is more extensive than the language game of which ‘legal ownership’ is a part.  I can of course speak meaningfully of ‘my’ child, ‘my’ neighbor, even (somewhat awkwardly) of ‘my air’, referencing perhaps the air in (again somewhat awkwardly) ‘my’ lungs.  But when we meaningfully speak of such things, the context will generally clarify the language game in which we are now engaged, outside of and beyond the context of ‘legal ownership.’)

‘I belong to Christ’ is only true within the structural spiritual reality of God’s law-articulated creation, and my adherence to its laws, which are repentance, baptism, Communion, and self-sacrifice.

FOOLISH GALATIANS!

Like physical fitness, the healthy Christian life is essentially an exercise in rationality; the difference is that the facts being rationally accommodated are spiritual rather than physiological.

WRAITHS

Our responsibilities, provided we tend to them, are usually the major factor in shaping our lives.  Where we go, when we eat, where and when we sleep, how we spend our hours – these are all largely determined by our various responsibilities.

A roofer’s life has a very different shape from a nurse’s life, as do both from a jockey’s life or a banker’s life, or a farmer’s or a philosopher’s.  A sailor is very differently constrained and occupied than a shepherd or a mother or a plumber or a slave – all because of their varying responsibilities.

When our responsibilities change, the shapes of our lives change.  When their responsibilities disappear and are not replaced, lives, now unanchored, become unmoored, like driftwood, become almost indistinguishable, like sheep.

Prisoners in the penitentiary, even while retaining separate personalities, lead lives that are materially similar and spiritually uniform.  Incarcerated and tended to, they are ironically perfectly liberated, freed from their responsibilities.  That’s why the lives of long-term prisoners tend to become small and picayune, vanishingly uninteresting, colorless and vague.

This is the great temptation of freedom – its demonic allure – the temptation to escape the burdens of responsibility, to render service to no one except oneself.

That’s why St. Paul warns us not to abuse our freedom.  That’s why Christ’s final instruction was Feed my sheep.

And that’s why all demons are wraiths.

MY KINGDOM FOR A HORSE!

Jacob got the better of Esau, we say, because we’re using a worldly standard to compare their rewards – in this case the ‘dollar’ value of a plate of stew versus that of a substantial inheritance.  But Esau wasn’t stupid: his reality at the moment was an overwhelming hunger, and that changed the equation.  To someone dying of thirst, a drink of water is truly more precious that diamonds and pearls.

Jesus notes the blessedness of those who hunger and thirst after righteousness, that is, obedience to God’s will, because they value the same thing he does.

The final temptation in the wilderness was the whole world versus obedience to God’s will.  It wasn’t a sacrifice for Jesus to choose obedience, because of his own hunger.

AN ASIDE

TWO BUMS TALKING:  “YOU GOT A FAMILY?”  “HAD A BROTHER NAMED BILL, BUT HE DISAPPEARED ONE DAY WHEN HE WAS TWENTY-TWO, AND WE NEVER SAW HIM AGAIN.”  “HE RAN AWAY?”  “NAW.  GOT A JOB.”

THE EYE OF THE NEEDLE

On more than one occasion Jesus speaks in a cautionary way about wealth.  In response, we often assure ourselves that it’s not the wealth itself that’s problematic, but rather our attitude towards it.  Echoing Paul, we maintain stoutly that it’s not the possession but the love of money where evil is rooted, coyly implying that the soil of our own character remains free of such corruption – that vast wealth would meet its master in our hands.

Of course, everyone’s a hero in his own mind until his mettle is tested on the battlefield. 

And in fact, many qualities of our actual characters – as opposed to our own self-conceptions – await opportunity for proving.  Fidelity remains hypothetical until beckoned by the Siren-song, as the cancer ward provides a tribunal for professions of religious confidence.

Excessive wealth reveals true character in the same way, and the quality tested for is humility, the absence of self-esteem in one’s dealings with others and with God.  Which leads to the two reasons why Jesus, among all the various circumstances that can expose our hypocrisies and self-deceptions, singles out wealth for special status.

The first is because humility lies at the very foundation of the heavenly existence, as codified in the first beatitude: Blessed are the poor in spirit, for of them is the kingdom of heaven.

And the second is because it’s a test no one can pass.